I'm now in the process of getting some new wheels. It's not the kind that we all wish for, it's a wheel chair. I'm not sure how I feel about the whole thing yet. I'm looking forward to being able to participate in life more, and have something to make life easier with injuries and bad pain days. But really, who looks forward to getting a wheel-chair? I don't think many of us as children or even adults had visions of ourselves in a wheel-chair. Even last year, it wasn't a thought that even crossed my mind. I was at the climbing gym, paddling and being insanely active. I'm going to have to learn how to live with more stares, ignorance and places that aren't accessible. It will require more planning, patience and a positive attitude. What makes me more anxious than anything, are the inevitable times when I'll run into someone I haven't seen for a while. Having to explain EDS and what it does to me gets tiring. Especially when I get told things like "You were fine before, why is this happening now?" No, I wasn't fine before. 14 years ago I was starting my little journey into the world of EDS with many, many bumps along the road. I find myself having a lot less patience for people who think they're doing me a favour by giving me their pity, claims to understand what EDS is like because they sometimes have a sore knee, or unwanted advise like getting some x-rays done. You know, because I never thought of that. It would fix all my problems!! Haha I've had so many x-rays and scans that I'm probably a bit radioactive by now. That's why my toes always glow when I'm somewhere dark. To be honest, I'm just not looking forward to the wheels at all, at least not yet. Yes, it could signify a new beginning,but for now I'm seeing a lot of things ending. Why do transitions have to suck ? I think it's time I invent some kind of extreme wheelchair something or other.
Those are my jumbled thoughts for now, maybe during the night I'll come up with a brilliant plan that involves a hover-chair. Now that would be cool! Writing these posts when I'm a little more coherent would probably make some sense too.
For now, this awesome video will have to suffice.